~The-Scarlett-Angel

well after an up and down 2 years i am close to being settled. I still live with my boyfriend in our huge ass apartment but now i have a seet 07 ride and i go to Cosmetology school. So as of yet i havent had much time to work on my art but i promise... its comming...whether it be picture of hair art or more computer stuff i dont know... but its comming..


Anyone miss me?

Ladies and gentlemen I am finally after 20 years moving out of my parents house and into my own. Yay for me! BUt anyways if Any of you that i know personally want to come see my new place feel free! i would love to see some of you!
Ta for now!

Wow.. talk about how fast life can change.. This month has been going very well.. Even though my plans with my friend Kyle to go to Long Island for a long weekend to veg on the beach and barhop all weekend fell through.. What happened instead was much more preferable. No details Sorry. But needless to say I had a realization of a few things.. First and most importantly.. I. am. not. Broken. Everything else is really not important compared to that but.. Discovering that the emotional organ I once had but thuroughly had stomped, beaten, and generally abused does still function. Also.. the image of myself as horrid and unworthy is severly diminished. I have only three words to sum up why. He Chose Me. I know it sounds a little degrating that i came to this conclusion only by another persons opinion.. but I will be the first to tell you that for a good part of my self image and esteem is built on what I hear and see and feel from other people. This past weekend taught me that I am still a beautiful human being and Even if things go bad *knock on wood* I am still me. I am still beautiful and No one can take that away from me. I might be sad about it for a while.. But hell. I spent 10 years in a chemical induced depression that nearly took my soul, and I had no will to stop it for fear of being hurt by another person that claimed to want to help me but only betrayed me. Eric did save my life.. but he almost took it more than once. His chapter in my life is over.. I really think I can finally say good bye and have no second thoughts about turning around.
As to the next chapter of my life.. Not Sure. School. Maybe more school after that.. Guys?... Well.. I'll just let what ever happens happen ^_~

Bye!

Hmm.. Journal... I already have a live journal and i hardly use that one.. but what the heck. Mind as well have two.

Not really much to say that would intrest anyone.. My best friend is moving away and my other best friend has desided that her boyfriend was more important than our friendship. I dont want it to end but she puts forth no effort and frankly im not going to either. So much is just wrong i just dont care anymore.

My life as it is kinda blows right now. Guys confuse and frustrate me to no end and the girls.. well they are just plain insane lately. No joke. Work is stressful and my body is reacting accordingly. My back is a solid mass of knots and i have no money to go get them rubbed away. I have oral surgury comming up soon for my wisdom teeth that are comming in sideways and to top it all off my heart has been having palpitations and now i have to go see a cardiologist. Fun times.

This is just the tip of the iceberg of my problems right now.